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Repost: I am going through some things personally and this is what registerd with me after reflecting upon yesterday’s sermom…

I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, LORD, only makest me dwell in safety. Psalms 4:8

Lately I have been thinking deeply and meditating hard on how to conduct myself mentally, emotionally and spiritually while waiting patiently and faithfully on the Lord to deliver through on a promise made. Last night my pastor touched briefly on Paul’s ordeal during the shipwreck and how even though things didn’t look so good, Paul held on and firmly relayed the message delivered by the angel, that all would be safe. Everyone on the ship believed him and felt safe in Pauls words of encouragement. Then my pastor’s wife made a comment that hit me like a ton of bricks, she said ” Paul believed in God’s word, and so the people believed in him, but then the ship wrecked and tore apart” What do you do when the storm tears up your ship before you are brought to safety? Good question.

Now we all know how the story ends, the ship wrecks yet they are all saved, the people on the island treated them well, Paul healed the sick, and fast forward three months later they set sail again with donated support from the locals. Now did God keep his promise to Paul? Yes it’s very obvious. But if you rewind back to the passage where the soldiers on the ship tried to save their lives by lowering the life boats and Paul tells them “no one will be saved unless we all stay on the ship” You will see that this is when the battle between confidence in God and human reasoning to save oneself because there is no good end in sight originates.

Imagine being in this situation, someone has told you that they were told by an angel that everyone will be fine, so you assume the storm is going to let up, and all will be fine. But soon after that the storm gets worse, you see no good ending in sight, so you do what comes natural, you try to save yourself from the storm and hope for the best. During the midst of the worse of the storm as you are trying not to drown you’re told , no one will make it unless we stay on this ship. While on this ship that is being battered by a horrible storm, you have a decision to make in that split second. You can trust what you have been told and ride it out or, you can jump ship and try to save yourself forgetting about the promise for your safety that was hand delivered by an angel of God to a minister of God. Not only that, but even when you trust him and stay on the boat, it still wrecks and breaks in little pieces, now you are stranded. Where is the promise of safety? Who is going to rescue you? You can’t turn around and go back, YOU HAVE NO BOAT!

I have been here many times, and many times my faith fails in this one single area. God has promised me something, given me his word to stand on, I claim it, hide it in my heart and patiently wait, then things don’t ever seem as if its getting better, it starts to get worse then I question my faith. I question if I am really going to get out of this situation? I start doubting myself and my relationship with God, I start to wonder did I pray amiss? Did I really hear God on this? Did I find this scripture myself to support what I want or did God really reveal it to me? Am I deceived? Am I still in God’s will? I could go on and on with the things that run through my mind.

But after reading this story and really, I mean really stewing in meditation, it really registered
that even though we go through things in this life, and God promises to deliver us, or to make us stronger, or that we need to just wait on him, that things can actually get worse for us before they get better. It doesn’t mean that God has forsaken us, or forgotten us, or that we didn’t receive a promise from him. He’s testing us. He is testing us to see if we will get off the boat that is about to crash into a million pieces in the middle of nowhere during one of the most fiercest storms of the season. That says a lot right there. It shows us where we are in our faith, where we are in our human reasoning, where we are in our trust. Think about how powerful Paul’s testimony had to be, not only did they trust him as he trusted God, but even after they wrecked, the soldiers wanted to kill all the prisoners for fear of escape, but because of the favor given to Paul, it didn’t happen.

There will be people around us who only look at our outward circumstances, they only see us as a prisoner who may try and escape, but God can give us favor with those who can save our lives and the lives of those just like us. People may never understand, empathize, sympathize or even care about us. They may just want to cast us aside and write us off. But it is our trusting in God through the most difficult of storms, shipwrecks, and castaways that gets us through.

It’s hiding his promise in our hearts when the pregnancy test comes out negative again and you know he has promised you a child, or when the husband neglects you yet another time but you know God promised you a marriage after his heart, when you have trusted in him for financial blessings that are direly needed, but the main breadwinner becomes un-employed, the mortgage is in foreclosure, the baby won’t feed from the “free milk” and you now need formula that costs the same as a utility bill. Through all of this, God is trying to see how close you are to him, how well do you know his voice, how fast will you look for a way out of your own, and how loud you cry to everyone but him during your time of distress.

I don’t know about you, but I am in the process of tearing apart all my little lifeboats. I am asking God to help me keep a calm piece during the midst of my storms, and to know that while storms don’t last always, they certainly can become more tempestuous before they end. I want to have the same peace as Jesus, when He and the disciples were also on a ship during a bad storm and during the storm Jesus was asleep. I don’t want to be like the disciples running around frantic and frustrated waking Jesus up out of his slumber to quiet a storm that only requires me to have the faith as His to ride it out in deep, peaceful sleep.

Stay Blessed and Encouraged.


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No, I don’t have Obama-mania, but I will admit that over the past couple of years I have been inspired in love with the way they openly show their love and admiration for each other. As a former loather of all things PDA, I have had a change of heart. Maybe it’s because I am newly married, or maybe it’s because I am finally glad to be able to see un-staged, unscripted, healthy, vibrant love on display for the world to see, by a young couple with kids. I now think it’s a beautiful and healthy thing that the world needs to see more of.
Now I don’t really agree with the mainstream media, who have already given them the task of restoring a positive image of “black love”. I actually kinda resent it being tied just to one race. However, after much observation ( over the past couple of years) I will admit it’s something I believe could be on display more openly in the Christian arena.
I mean we talk and post about all these things we need to do behind closed doors to spice up our martial relations, but publicly it just seems as though its more business as usual. I see Christian couples out together, out spending time with the kids and all that stuff but I don’t see much of the flirting, the sparkling looks in the eyes, the playful looks that can only be understood by the couple but felt by anyone within close proximity.

mark and I on our last night of our honeymoon.

Mark and I get tons of heat from some, even family about how “all up under each other” we always are. We get lovingly teased in church because we sit so close that we read from one bible. We hold hands while we drive and when we are out eating, we always sit at a booth and next to each other. I mean, it’s not tasteless making out, but we do sit close, we walk close, we are engaged in each other when we are out and the girls think we are romantic. After we came under heavy fire during the holidays from a close relative it hit me finally that the world is not used to seeing the effects that Godly love between a husband and wife portrays. He gets called hen pecked, whipped, nose wide open and other such crazy things, and while the criticism may hurt a little, we both know we were not being vain, but humble about how we feel about each other.

Sadly, many of my friends and relatives outside of my church peers aren’t used to seeing me or with someone who is attentive to me, who never leaves the room without asking all if there is something he can get them while he’s up. They aren’t used to seeing true chivalry. The chivalry that is alive in my husband is only because it is a virtue that God put in his heart. He doesn’t try to make the other guys look bad, I don’t try to make the other women look like I am “oh so holy”, but we revel in how God has ordained for us to treat one another; and while it would seem more tempting to retreat and fall victim to the lie that we are causing an offense, we have just purposed that we will continue to bask in the miracle of the love that was made and given from God. Truly of ourselves we are not deserving, but God gave us a testimony and we will share it as humbly as possible and stay true to ourselves. We are in love, and the world doesn’t want us to show that openly.

I think about Matthew 5:16, Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven. In my mind this applies to not only how I conduct myself as a Christian, but how I advertise my marriage.With all the superficial filth and the demoralization of love in our culture today, true and blessed love from God between two people needs to be displayed openly. I’m not talking about only a “yes dear, submissive, obligatory love, I mean constant aura of courtship and bliss. I also don’t mean that we need to compete with the overly sexed make out sessions, and walking around with our hands stuffed down each others britches, groping and falling all over each other displays of affection. But there needs to be something that isn’t always seen as so serious or starch collar.

We don’t need to walk around looking as though we love each other out of obligation as if we sleep in the same room in separate beds with wool night gowns donned with stocking caps either.We want this world to once again embrace the sanctity of marriage, the beauty of biblical courtships,and the true grit of sticking it out and weathering the storms. We want women to embrace biblical femininity, loving submission, and to turn away from the detrimental viewpoints of our feminist counterparts. We want more men to be strong, biblical, loving heads desirers of all things lovely,well who exactly do we think is going to advertise this? Certainly not this mainstream, anti-family culture! Not Hollywood or the music industry with its carefree love and overly sex crazed ideology of the perfect life. Yes, we have books, but really and truly they often begin with good intentions and then dwindle away once one’s attention span has been distracted by “other things”.

People are more drawn to the images they see. They are more drawn to love in action versus love in words. Christian couples are the dwindling light that is becoming overshadowed by the darkness of lust, divorce, fornication, and all things contradictory to the word of God.So with that being said, I encourage us all to try a little harder to show the world outside of blogging and writing about how happy we are, and how much better having a strong marriage is than the alternative the world has to offer. Maybe we need to outwardly show that we have happy, loving, fun and flirtatious marriages a little bit more. I believe that a couple can be together so long that they just fall into a routine lockstep and really aren’t aware of our presentation or lack there of of our contentment vs complacency.

We can compete with them, I believe we do out number them. Why? Well we all believe that love conquers all and according to Scripture love beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. Love never fails.

edited to add: I added photos’ of VP Biden and his wife Jill, because I love them too! They are the coolest granparents and a cute mature couple!

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James 4:7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.KJV

When I started to struggle with things while in the newness of my spiritual life that I could argue or debate against the technicality of Scripture, this is the scripture that would come to me. I started asking myself could I just submit and do or do with out the thing for the glory of God until I received clear direction of his will. Is my defense of how I see things so important that I can’t just try the opposite of my will to have the ability to walk circumspect with the Lord ?

I stared to find out that Once I submitted and said ” Lord I don’t agree with or see this matter that is weighing on my heart but I will humbly submit and see where you lead me”, begin to do so then I felt free and clear about the matter and received that needed direction and conviction in my heart about where God will have me to stand on the matter.

As I sit sometimes and read many blogs and blogger comments, I often wonder If on those things we read that we think of as too extreme, or an over-exaggeration of Scripture do we have an obligation to stop and ask ourselves is God trying to tell me something? Is there something he’s showing me? No, I blatantly disagree with this sister’s point of view but why Lord is it weighing on my heart so heavy? Why am I feeling drawn to devote my time to prove her theory wrong, could she be right? Or, are we so sanctimonious and caught up in our stands and beliefs that we could never entertain that we could have been taught wrong? Or do we just think that certain beliefs calls too much for us to step outside our comfort zone because Salvation doesn’t require all that?

I know that we all have different interpretations on Scripture, we have different doctrinal view-points some of them have similar foundations but just a little different structure, but one thing holds true, we all feel that we are blogging in the will of the Lord, to spread a ministry and enlighten the world on the biblical principals that concern us as wives, mothers, and godly women. We jostle each other’s creative juices with thought probing posts and revelations but then there are times when we just don’t see or agree with another sisters’ ministry. Scripture doesn’t mean that to us, and things become a tad bit legalistic, or extremist. So who’s right? We say search the Scripture to see if what we read is relevant to us and God’s will for us; but if we are searching the Scripture defensively with the hopes of debunking another sisters idea are we then keeping an open heart, mind, and will for God to show us that what we have been taught, or discerned from the Scripture was maybe wrong, or maybe needs to move up another level?

Could God show us one thing for one season or period in our lives, and then direct us outside of our comfort in that area to prepare us for another season in our lives? Could there very well be a teaching or way of thinking that makes no sense to us now, but could possible save our children or grandchildren 20yrs from now?

Trust me, I am not naive enough to go out there and try any and everything I disagree with, but in being honest with my one soul there are those things that only God and myself know about that burdens my thoughts and my mind. I am honest with myself about these things, and I take it to God to see if he is trying to show me anything. So many times we think that we are in the Scripture but the interpretation that we get from that Scripture is what we pull from it to satisfy our own will and desire. My biggest fear is that I will become deceived by my own interpretation of Scripture because I want it to fit into my box.

I often think of the story in the gospel Luke where Jesus confronted Simeon Peter after they had spent all day fishing with no desired result. He told them to launch out into the deep. It is evident by their response to Jesus that they were tired, it was nighttime and they could see no way possible to catch any fish but they trusted Jesus and tried the opposite of what they thought they knew and were blessed abundantly. This is the testimony that I want. Lord when I don’t see it, when it goes against practicality, can I just do the opposite and launch outside my way of thinking and become abundantly blessed.

There is so much that we can learn from each other, but we need to always have the mindset and expectation that the one thing that we set out to learn may very well not be the thing that God is trying to teach us. Think of the rich young ruler who had obeyed all the commandments but when Jesus told him the one thing that he lacked, he couldn’t see himself doing it and he went away sorrowful. Our one thing may not be riches, it may homeschooling, points of view on modesty,make up or jewelry. It could be not working outside the home, or living frugally. Whatever it is that we just outright disagree with due to a scriptural shade of gray, just ask yourself if you are emulating the rich young ruler? Is it that one thing that could possible keep you out of the kingdom of heaven? In my heart of hearts I believe that each and everyone of us has the main mission of making it to heaven and with that mission we should always remember that the road we have mapped out for our journey may involve a few twists and turns that we never saw coming but will lead us there quicker and safer.
All in all we should live every day of our salvation with the same mindset we had when we first came to the knowledge of Christ. The same eagerness to please him and the same child-like humility.

For behold this selfsame thing, that ye sorrowed after a godly sort, what carefulness it wrought in you, yea, what clearing of yourselves, yea, what indignation, yea, what fear, yea, what vehement desire, yea, what zeal, yea, what revenge! In all things ye have approved yourselves to be clear in this matter. I Cor 7:11

Be Blessed and Stay Encouraged!

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